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i lost a friend.... and its not death

Tue May 19, 2009, 4:35 AM
  • Mood: Neglect
  • Listening to: how to save a life - the fray
  • Reading: ~vectorchaotix's messeges >w< <3
  • Watching: YOU OvO
  • Playing: psp~ >=]
  • Eating: granola bar XD
  • Drinking: water..~ :) blood :3
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first of all i wanna see thank you to those who gave me commented some song/s in my preview journal =D :hug:
okay so i guess this is "sad" journal entry. i dont go emo shit on my journal. so here it goes XD

lets say you have this BESTESTBESTFRIEND, boy/girl doesnt matter. you spend time with this bestfriend all the time, just having fun with random stuff that makes you laugh or smile all the time. suddenly, you realized that bestfriend is slowly "fading" away from you. spending less and less time with you and you dont really get to do the usual stuff like before anymore. you suddenly find out your bestfriend has a boyfriend/girlfriend. you suddenly pause for a while, thinking, running through every vain in your body to find an answer on what emotion you're suppose to show. happy that your bestfriend has someone who he/she loves in a different way as a best friend... or sad... sad that you're losing time with your bestfriend. you get neglected, forgotten, snobbed, ditch and even "closed down" in something you want to do but your bestfriend, that bestfriend, is always busy with the "mate". when ~VectorChaotix accepted my "can i be your boyfriend?" have i changed? i asked a lot...yes, A LOT, they said not at all. they even told me that i became happier, thanks to her. if ever you noticed im busy thinking its because i have a girlfriend now, no. im not like that. im just skating more often now because im going back to school by june. i havent skated that much last april. i do spend time with my girlfriend, yes, just how much i spend time with my friends and online friends too. she even treats her friends just like before like what im doing. i even go online in MSN using my phone when i skate just so i can be "there" to you too even if im out. but no, just yourself... is still getting neglected. for example, you tried neglecting that bestfriend too, giving the same treatment but if you look at your own point of view. you're the one waiting. so the neglecting goes on, checking msn list once in a while in appear offline mode. checking your phone every now and then if he/she texted you at least a "hey". nothing happend... then, you suddenly just forgot about that bestfriend. it started to come back to you. he/she is looking for you now on why you disappeared or something so you come back to that bestfriend. but the neglecting starts again from that bestfriend.... you start the neglecting/waiting part again and it keeps repeating that you grew tired... but... it returns to the "wanting you back part" and you have two choices.... to stay hidden or to come back again... and again. deep inside your head, you think: 1) if i stay hidden, will he/she feel pain but will realize that what he/she is doing is wrong? or 2) you want him/her back so badly that you'll stand the pain instead but you'll grow tired of it anyway so you'll hide again.... but deep inside, you know you just want him/her back as your bestestbestfriend. you look into the past with you and that bestfriend... but something popped up... this isnt the first time... but, it has a bigger effect now... probably the most painful effect. you dont know what to do. look again, you realized that you two are fighting but he/she doesnt know whats really hurting you, then... he/she blames you instead. *sigh* so life goes on right? you're starting to lose interest in that bestfriend once more but... put a hand on your chest where you feel your headbeat. instead, you're actually STILL waiting patiently... and i stop there... looking everywhere... where is the answer for someone you care? but i must go... letting it go through a nice sleep.. thinking very deep... what to do the next day.. there you lay... not having the answer. but i found a clue... i think it over.. is it really a clue? you may see that bestfriend in my bestfriend list... he/she will remain there... but is it worth it? deep inside my heart i know he/she is worth there forever but... i stare at that section... drowning... in thoughts... is your heart right?



Kodi. ~:heart:


peace out~ :D



EVERYBODY SCREAM YOUR HEART OUT!



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GIRLFRIEND:

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talented people [unlike me XD] i watch:


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Best Friends: [not special order]

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STAMPS!:


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my DA Family!

DA bitch: :rose:
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DA parents: :iconthefonzplz:
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DA sisters: :aww:
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DA brother/s: B-)
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DA cousins: B-)
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DA pets: :w00t:
Pet Ferret: :iconcinos-the-ferret: Pet Paochatian: :iconallesiathehedge: Pet cat: :icontwilightthehedgehog:



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my team! team marshmallow/marshWHUT XD :3

:iconminuwhutplz:Flight- Minu=~minuangel:iconminuangel: member, leader and princess :XD:

:iconsparkwhutplz:Speed- Spark=~kodisshadow:iconkodisshadow: member, graffiti artist :nod:

:iconmusiqwhutplz:Power- Musiq=~rakiztah101:iconrakiztah101: member, awesome artist:nod:


[ALL credits goes to ~VectorChaotix dude, you're AWESOME! :headbang::hug::clap:]

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clubs i joined:

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my accounts -> ~kodisshadow:iconkodisshadow:~darkdisturbedsoul:icondarkdisturbedsoul:

(credits to: -> *Roxo89:iconroxo89:~alonesonicx:iconalonesonicx:~AmyLuvSon:iconamyluvson:~kozatt:iconkozatt: )

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29 Comments

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Mood: Affection =Cinos-the-Ferret May 19, 2009, 6:48:15 AM
hey :hug: just wanna let you know that when you do start feelin bad you can always talked to me cuz your 1 of my best friends and stuff :hug: hope everything turns out alright though :)

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~minuangel May 19, 2009, 12:08:42 PM
D: i wonder if thats meh ur talking about >:
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idk.... when it comes to things like this i all of a sudden think its meh XD
oh blah idk DX *slap*

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If the world isn't like a box of chocolates, which would you choose?
Dark, White, or Milk Chocolate?

If pink were blue and blue were pink... which would you choose? just think of amy in blue and sonic in pink XD
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~kodisshadow May 19, 2009, 4:35:12 PM
:rofl:
dont worry. its not you =P :hug:
you can never hurt my feelings XD :glomp:

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music and skateboarding forever~:skullbones:

~ standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out! ~

other account -> :bulletred:~darkdisturbedsoul:bulletred:

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~kodisshadow May 19, 2009, 4:36:04 PM
thank you! :iconglompage:
im sorry if i havent been around you lately ^^; :hug:
like commenting and stuff ^^;

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music and skateboarding forever~:skullbones:

~ standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out! ~

other account -> :bulletred:~darkdisturbedsoul:bulletred:

:bulletblue::rose::heart:~VectorChaotix:heart::rose::bulletblue:
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~CrazyInsane1 May 19, 2009, 5:20:34 PM
I fully understand how you feel, seeing as how I've gone through the situation many times before, and it's even caused fights in my case...

But if you need some comforting words, I don't plan on drifting away from anyone anytime soon!;3

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"Pwnzoar! I don't wanna be a Space Mexican!"

"Alex, you're not even an EARTH Mexican..."
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~kodisshadow May 19, 2009, 5:28:25 PM
same here and thanks for understanding :hug:

awwww. :glomp: thank you~

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music and skateboarding forever~:skullbones:

~ standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out! ~

other account -> :bulletred:~darkdisturbedsoul:bulletred:

:bulletblue::rose::heart:~VectorChaotix:heart::rose::bulletblue:
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~Katina-the-hedgie May 19, 2009, 7:15:36 PM
Aw, you know you haven't changed~ :hug:

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Whoo-hoo. <3
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~kodisshadow May 19, 2009, 9:22:11 PM
thats good :icon8dplz: thanks |D
just to tell you, you're not the one im talking about up there =P :hug: you do now harm 8D XD

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music and skateboarding forever~:skullbones:

~ standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out! ~

other account -> :bulletred:~darkdisturbedsoul:bulletred:

:bulletblue::rose::heart:~VectorChaotix:heart::rose::bulletblue:
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~kodisshadow May 19, 2009, 9:24:46 PM
i mean "you do no harm 8D" typo :XD:

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music and skateboarding forever~:skullbones:

~ standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out! ~

other account -> :bulletred:~darkdisturbedsoul:bulletred:

:bulletblue::rose::heart:~VectorChaotix:heart::rose::bulletblue:
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